Do you know what the worst feeling in the world is? It’s wanting to see you but not being able to. Wanting to hear your voice but not hearing it. It feels like my chest is bursting with thirst. I struggle, suffocate. I don’t feel like talking to anyone. I don’t feel like doing anything. Everything feels irritating, unbearable. I sit quietly in a dark corner of the room, filled with sadness and loneliness. It’s a strange, awful feeling—one for which no words have ever been created. To think that I’ll never see you again, never touch you, never hear you, never love you again—there’s no feeling worse than that.
Sometimes, grief is so deep that tears won’t come. I want to cry so badly, but I can’t. Day by day, I’m turning into stone—a stone body filled only with sorrow. Tell me, where do I keep all this pain? When will these days of sadness end?What if one morning I woke up and found that I had no pain, no desires, no feelings—how would that be? Or, what if one morning I opened my eyes and saw you lying beside me—how would that feel? I know that’s impossible. Still, I wish for a day like that to come—a morning when I wake and see you next to me. Then, even if the world ends right after, I’ll have no regrets. @jakir.net
